I QUIT! In less than one mile. I felt more exhausted than after finishing the Boston Marathon.
How could this be? I was scheduled for one of my hardest training workouts for MWRR, yet I was truly running on empty.
Oddly, this was not an episode of EDS (excessive daytime sleepiness) associated with narcolepsy, I’d taken my trustworthy 6:45-7:30pm nap before hitting the gym. My head felt clear without any weight on my skull – but my body was dead tired, maybe from over-training.
I walked on the treadmill and drafted my “quitting” blog post in my head: “Sometimes quiting takes more strength than moving forward…”
I was about to STOP, but then, I dunno, time passed…
I walked 4 minutes.
Ran 1 minute.
Walked 2 minutes.
On and on… At some point, I quit quitting.
About 80 minutes after giving up, I found myself 3,000 feet in the air and 5.6 miles from the start line. I’d virtually “climbed” the Empire State Building TWICE – making the night I quit – the farthest and highest I’d ever run/climbed in my life!
So, if you face an insurmountable challenge – I suggest you consider quitting (knowing you can quit your quiting at any time too!)
For me, quitting released my expectations for the future and re-set my focus in the present. It’s easy to get overwhelmed by the daunting “bigger picture.” Likewise, it’s tempting to get swept away by a single sensation of discomfort and forget that it will pass.
Each moment offers one and only choice: to quit or take one more step forward. You may surprise yourself when the steps add up!
Please note: If I experience narcolepsy symptoms on the treadmill, I do not push through if I believe I am in any danger. Exercise is not a cure for my narcolepsy symptoms. Running on the verge of EDS or cataplexy could be dangerous. Safety first. Namaste!